💙 My Boy Is Home 💙

5 days ago we had Reggies cremation.

I don’t feel as shitty today as I did that morning...or when the unimaginable happened 5 weeks ago.

5 weeks?!

I have managed to get through 5 weeks!

The days are easier when Jaxon and Louis are home. Their laughter and silliness are always a welcome distraction from sitting alone with my thoughts and googling crap...so today I am feeling ok.

I still have this burning feeling in my chest, almost as If I am waiting for something...whether it’s the missing part of me, or if I am waiting for something else to go wrong I don’t know. I just feel slightly unsettled and uneasy.

The past 5 weeks have been nothing short of a shit storm.

I currently take each hour as it comes, as I never know what will trigger the next outburst of tears.

So at this point in time I am ok, this afternoon, tomorrrow or even next week I may not be...and if I have a little cry that is also ok.

We knew when we were making plans for Reggies final resting place we wanted him to be as close as possible.

Originally being from London (currently living in Warwickshire) I knew I didn’t want to bury him - if I move away again I don’t want to feel like I am leaving him behind.

Scattering his ashes wasn’t an option as there was no place of significance for us with Reggie, we had been robbed of any future memories with our boy.

I found a lovely lady online called Nat - she runs a Facebook page called ‘Departed Art’ and makes the most beautiful memory bears.

So I reached out and shared a little about our lost boy who had only just began his journey to Neverland.

From the moment I had shared that first little bit of heartache every dealing I have had with Nat has been nothing short of personal and supportive.

Sending me messages of support the eve of his funeral...and just checking in to see if I am ok following the service.

She has not only provided me with the most beautiful memory of my boy, but also a lifeline...to be able to reach out to her at anytime should I need to l, even if it’s just for a chat.

When lifelong friends fade away and a stranger reaches out it really makes you think!

So as much as I dislike the reasons I am able to recommend this lovely lady’s work if you find yourself in a situation where memories and/or the ashes of a loved one are all you have then reach out to DepartedArt@yahoo.com and have a little look at the Departed Art Facebook page.

https://www.facebook.com/Departed-Art-247912576127046/

💙 My boy is home where he belongs 💙

Until next time maybe,

Michelle xXx